So, a friend of mine just started blogging (welcome afkaary) and she has the most hilariously true posts. Two of my favourite posts talk of relationship and marriage.
Just got me thinking of how terrifying trusting and completely giving yourself to a guy can be. I mean when you stand in that altar, can someone ever be sure that this is it. I am not sure one can be and that is scary.
It is said we live in times when truth is subjective and dependent on so many variables. We live in times when love does not define a relationship. Growing up with the ladybird series, I believed that love was the embodiments of all other virtues among them honesty and faithfulness. Now all grown up, I am in view of a different reality! Though he loves me it does not guarantee that he will always be faithful cherish only me, forfeiting all others. Teary truth to tell oneself.
So, what now???!!! Do i accept that my choices might be wrong or in all probabilities will be wrong. I have a friend who told me today that it is not that he wont cheat, its just that you pray he comes back home. Really??!! This is what I have to look forward to.
Afkaary says we have to learn to let go of the steering wheel, let him drive sometimes. I agree but.... what if he is not such a good driver. I used to think I am those totally independent women but i have found out that, I am really not. I would love to have a man take care of me a bit, I would love to take off my shoes and trust his to carry me across but what scares me is, will I survive the fall should I drop.
I guess that is what it means to dare to love. The odds are scary and I am just wondering if i should just look out for myself and change the game.
Insanely wondering..............
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