Perfectly Butchered

So I am having a recurring nightmare that i will one day wake and realize, I am out of time! A friend of mine says that, in chasing a career and a stable life we should not forget that in the end the legacy we leave are, the children. I actually do not dispute that but, in my nightmare I can not seem to find a logical way to achieve this. I think it reflects my life. I am starting out in a career and i can not take care of myself as yet so commitment to a child will be almost impossible. I know that if you have a child, you work it and learn how to commit and manage but, I like plans. I want it to be something i can handle not something i have to handle. And i am big on the horse goes before the carriage; I am big on marriages so bummer!

I want the opportunity to do this my way. I want my career to take off then lets us do the family and work on it from there! Am i to ambitious for wanting that?!
I do not think so. In this time of hard economic times why should i not place myself in such position to be able to take care of myself and my family. I am traditional but i do not think starving is the way to be in touch with your roots!

I have eyes i see how women who depend fully on their partners are left with nothing when he decides to throw you out. Or worse women are forced to live in constant fear of a major disease because their husbands can not keep in their pants. They can not leave because they have no other option! I do not want to ever be stuck! So i am going to slow it down and work it my way.

Hopefully the Lord helps me out there!